October 3, 2009

  • What happened?

    I cringe at the first hit of my ciggertte
    My long black hair hanging in my face
    Once agian going though the same thing
    I think every time i date a new guy.

    “am i good enough?”
    “is he going to cheat?”
    “is he like the others?”
    “is it worth the hurt agian?”

    I exhale loudly as i look in the mirror
    disgusted by my own reflection
    What have i become?

    Im cold hearted & mean spirted.
    I no longer smile or laugh.
    I eat every word they tell me.
    I gave up way to young.

    I ethier trust to easily or not at all.
    I say sorry for somthing i didnt do.
    I forgive the unforgivable.
    Ive lost myself some where along this path.

    Everyone says what happened to the Ashley i remeaber?
    The one who smile could light up a room.
    The one who was so nice.
    The optimistic little girl who loved everyone.
    The girl who could cheer anyone up.

    I tell them she’s gone.
    Lost in all the lies.
    With all the shit i’ve been though im lucky im alive.
    My family hates me.
    boys Fuck me over.

    I can no longer fake the smile.
    I cant cheer people up, when im not happy myself.
    Then for a split second;
    The old ashley comes back.

    Then just as fast as she came back.
    She was gone.

     

September 26, 2009

September 14, 2009

September 7, 2009

  • Fun Night!

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    Ughh Your a Fag XD

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    Gosh NOAH lay off the pot!

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    Ohh you know boys Flock to MY bed

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    My Cats a God Damn Ninja

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    One Word:STONERS

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    Teryn Loves My Grandma!

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    Need I say More then BEER!!!!

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    Teryn is An Emo Bitch & Lydia Agrees

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    She wants my Vagina

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    I love you too……SKANK <3

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    EAT THT PUSSY

    005 
    Im A SEXY BITCH… Jkjk

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    Natalia w/ her lil bro

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    TACO BELL TIME!!!

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    Teyrn is Beautiful!

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    Yes, We are Triplets ,LMAO!

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    Do You Eat Tacos??

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    Cars go Vroom Vroom!

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    Yess I am Gangter Got a Problem?

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    She is Like Ashley if u take ONE More god damn Picture, Im gonna kick ur ass!

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    Fuck Being Sober!

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    Titty Time!!!

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    TACOS?

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    SLut??!?!

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    MODEL!

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    I LOVE YOU TACOBELL MAN!

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    TOUCH IT!

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    SEXY TACOBELL MAN!!

     

August 29, 2009

August 12, 2009

July 7, 2009

  • Quotes

    In movies, there are always misunderstandings before the hero and the heroine get together. He seems like he hates her, she thinks she hates him, he maybe courts her a little, they connect for a minute, then she misunderstands something and hates him again for most of the movie, despite various appealing things he does to try to win her. Or it’s the other way around, he seems like he hates her because he misunderstands something she did. And it turns out they were wrong. They love each other madly. And that’s the end.


    If it didn’t matter,
    it wouldn’t still be in your head

    the more i look around and listen, i realize that i’m not
    alone. we are all facing choices that define us. no choice, however messy, is without importance in the overall picture of our lives. we all at our own age have to claim something, even if it’s only our own confusion. i am in the middle of growing up and into myself.

    There have been lots of cars in my driveway and lots of  boys on my couch. I’ve toyed with the bad boys, momma’s  boys, & country boys. I’ve been broken by a few, and broken a few myself. I’ve only said “I love you” twice, but meant it only once. I’ve been the rebound, the challenge, the fallback, and the girlfriend. I’ve been the mistake, and the
    correction. One day someone will love me for what I’ve been and what I am, where I’ve been, and where I am. Someday, yeah my prince will come

    They say talk is cheap so i bought every word you said

    yeah, it’s cute when people who have a lot in common date each other. But I prefer somebody I can argue with and in the end, agree to disagree, and then make out. Really, why date yourself?

    In life there are going to be some things that make it hard to smile, but whatever you go through, all the rain & the pain, you got to keep your sense of humour. You got to smile for me now, remember that.

    All I want is one person. One person to hold me down and force me to say how I really feel about what I have to say. One person to hug me and tell me things will be okay, even if they won’t.

    Who are you to judge the life I live? I’m not
    perfect and I don’t live to be, but before you start
    pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean.

    The minute you start enjoying yourself and who you’ve become,
    When you walk into a room with your head in the air,
    The minute you wake up and are glad to be you,
    The possibilities and opportunities will come knocking

    She’ll flip through her thousands of songs until she finds one that will perfectly describe the way she feels right now

    She’s the kind of girl who you forget as soon as you meet her. She’s the B-side to your favorite cassette tape, the crust on the bread, every face you’ve ever forgotten. She is the verse to that song on the radio, the one where you have to hum along because you can’t remember the words. Yeah, she’s that forgettable.

    I liked the days when boys were written down on paper listed on your top 5,
    instead of you carrying them in your heart.
    When you would brag about how cool your parents were,
    instead of talking about how they now ruin your lives.
    When the only reason you didn’t want to get out of bed for school was because you were sleepy, 
    &  now it’s because each day is a struggle.
    While hide & seek was the coolest game,
    instead of guys seeing how many girls they can go out with at one time.
    When you wished upon birthday candles,
    & now you wish on a boy who is holding your heart.
    The days when you were just a kid who still had their innocence, 
    & now you’re a teenager who knows everything has changed.

    Don’t make her wait for you, just because you know she will.

     

  • To get Beat

    Well my ex-stepdad came over today.

    He was fighting with my mom

    && he got really drunk

    at dinner time he was giving me a dirty look

    I told him to stop

    then he tried hitting me

    & then he really did

    He tried breaking my nose

    && he chased me around the house

    Throwing punches

    He punched the wall so hard

    his hand went through the other side

    it was the place i was not a second before he did it

July 5, 2009

July 3, 2009

  • Found My Glasses

      I finally found my glasses, they’ve been missing for about a year.

    They were  in my sistes room. I dont have to wear them all the time but i like wearing them, cuz im a NERD!!!!!

    me with my classes

    mewo