I hate myslef
I feel so alone
I miss being the good girl
Im ashamed about my past
&& scared about my future
Whats left when im gone
Will they still care
Will you still be here?

1] Take baths?: everday
2] Wash your hair?:  everyday
3] See your best friend?: 5 days a week
4] Listen to music?: 24/7
5] Eat?: once a day
6] Go to work?: never
7] Eat yogurt?:  idk
8] Do homework?: everyday
9] Write with a pencil?: all the time
10] Cut your nails?:  never
11] Paint your toenails?: never
12] Skip school?: never
13] Smoke?: somtimes
14] Wear jelly bracelets?: wtf?
15] Go on MySpace?:  evrey 2 weeks
16] Have sex?:  lol idk
17] Look at the clock?: every 2 hours
18] Use a calculator?: 5 times a week
19] Wear skulls?: somtimes
20] Hold hands?: rarley
21] Go food shopping?: never
22] Study?: never
23] Write a poem/song/story?: all the time
24] Wear hoodies?:  3/4 of the year
25] Wear skinny jeans?: evryday
26] Wear leopard print?: NEVER
27] Wear fishnets?: NEVER
28] Wear makeup?: everyday
29] Eat breakfast?: NEVER
30] Wear glasses?: barely ever
31] Get haircuts?: twice a year
32] Change your earrings?: never
33] See your boy/girlfriend?: dont got one
34] Speak another language?: every other day
35] Wear black?: ALOT
36] Wear pink?: NEVER
37] Go to a religious place (ex. church, temple)?: once a week
38] Buy random gifts for people?: once a month
39] Shave your legs?: everyday
40] Wear jeans?: EVERYDAY
41] Customize your clothing?: once a month
42] Go on the internet?: everyday
43] Play an instrument?: once in awhile
44] Go shopping?: never
45] Go to parties?: never
46] Wear eyeshadow?: somtimes
47] Drastically change your hair?: once a year
48] (If you stretch your ears) Go up a size?: never
49] Wear polos?: never
50] Take walks?: rarely
51] Drink soda?: all the time
52] Go tanning?: never
53] Swim?: during the summer
54] Do drugs?: never
55] Drink?: never
56] Wear plaid?: 3 times a week
57] Write in script?: never
58] Drink coffee?: never
59] Go to Starbucks?: somtimes
60] Read?: all the time

BOLD all those apply to you!!

im popular

I have lots of friends

I dont have many friends

I read like every day!!

I dont have alot of homework

I watch TV almost 24/7

My ears are pierced

Im pierced someone other then my ear

I LOVE the color pink

I get good grades

I have a Boy/Girl friend

Im single

I know somone who hates me

Im a Teachers Pet

Im a goth

I dont believe in ghosts and crap like that

Im VERY supersitcious

I have a Dog

I have a Cat

I dont have any pets

I have Straight hair

I have curly hair

My parents are divorced

Im a Girl

Im a boy

Im addicted to chocolate

I like Chinease food

i recently got a haircut

my hair is extra long

my hair is super short

I am FAT

Im skinny

I have a long first name

I have brothers/sisters

..::Basic Stuff::..
1) Full Name:Ashley Linda Kay Clark
2) Nick Names:Ashes,Ash, Ashey, Kaii
3) Gender:Female
4) Birthday:11/22
5) Star Sign:wtf

..::Family Stuff::..
6) What are you parents names?: Mike & Michelle
7) Do you have any siblings?: a half sister
8) If so, what are their names?: Brooke
9) How close are you with your distant family?: not at all
10) Do you wish you could put your family up for adoption?: yes

..::Relationship Stuff::..
11) Are you in a relationship with someone right now?: i dont know
12) How long have you been single/taken?: for like a day
13) Do you wish you could either be single/taken?: kinda
14) How long was your longest relationship?:3 years
15) Why did it end?:cheated

..::Personal Stuff::..
16) Are you heterosexual, homosexual, or bi-sexual?:bi-sexual
17) Are you a virgin?:no
18) Have you ever "experimented"?: like....
19) Do you do drugs?:no
20) Do you drink?:no

..::Friend Stuff::..
21) Who is your loudest friend?: I'd have to say Sara
22) Who is your hottest friend?: umm boy:Steven Girl:Sara
23) Who is you shyest friend?: Caleb
24) Who is your friend that you secretly have a crush on?:umm Caleb
25) Who is your best friend?: too many

..::Random Stuff::..
26) What do you think of Stephan Harper?:who?
27) Have you ever been diagnosed with a mental disorder?: ADHD
28) Are you an alcoholic?:no
29) What do you think of George W. Bush?:hes a FAG
30) Do you think you're "hot stuff"?:HELL NO

  is she? My ex cheated on me with her (TOLD YOU WHORES WEAR HOLLISTER)


my body


my face

Okay everyone says i have a very mature outlook on life;

I give everyone one chance, no matter who they are, what they look like, how old they are. Everyone gets One chance & one chance Only!

I dont care about looks; because when we get older looks fade but your personality is what matters. So those pretty bitches will be lonley & other will have someone.

I take the Friends Forever to heart. If me & a friend get in a fight & hate eachother i will still be there for her.

For example this girl tori she was throwing rocks at me on our half day & saying alot of shit about me. I took her to the school cousler I told her i know how she only doing that to be popular. But those people she called friends dont care about her & they will back stab her like she did to me. I told she could still hate me after all this but i would always be there for her no matter what. She started crying.

Seriously i want to know, am i pretty or ugly or what?

Ok, i just would like to know.

Im not vain , im the oppisite i have low self esstem.

Will i ever be pretty enough?
Will i ever be skinny enough?
Will this world ever change?
If I gave up everything for you, would you still want me?
If i gave you everything, would you leave me?
Why is when i trust you the most, you hurt me?
Whats wrong with me?
Why is to people at school im worthless?
Yet everywhere else people care?

Tell me the truth is it truley Worth it?
In the end

My best friend on here is quitting because his gf is paranoid about girls stealing him away!
    So i cant talk to him anymore D:
  && Then i got shit thrown at me at skatedaze && i was being terrorized by some ass.
    im really depressed.....
                 This is going to sound emo but....
                                             i want to kill myself.
         & who would really care or notice?

YEsss !
    I only have 4 1/2 days of school left!!!

                   Finally..... but i wonder what to do